today is mothers day

Yea, i called my mum early in the morning just to wish her Happy Mother's day.. hehe. Guess they will be going out for a treat today..(without me). Its been exactly 4 months since the last time i saw my parents. excpet for the occasional webcam sessions i had with my sis n mum. I think i didnt have the chance to really write down how i felt between that transition time when i was PARTED!! from my parents.. arghh.. so vivid in my mind. Macam kene kidnap gitu. Seriously, i wouldnt have thought that me... being the one who always didnt show any affection towards my parents would feel so left behind by them.

16 of Feb, was the last day my parents were accompanying me here. So in the morning, Alice was picking me up to be brought away to some boarding school, while Sam, was picking my parents up to be sent to the airport. After i gave my parents their cards, ALice said, " ok Hana, its time to say your good byes.. "
arghh shit.. the feeling was really shit i tell you. My mum cried non stop, and i did too..hugging me n kissing me so tightly. while my dad was trying to be hero ,saying " dah .. dah.. jangan nangis".
I guess, Dads must be Dads. They can't show emotions.. or they are not supposed to. But i know he was sad to leave his little girl behind. i dont mean to be biased or what, but i know he has the soft spot for both me and my little bro. So, they quickly brought my parents away from me. I trailed my mum's tudung ( it was pink )all the way till the moment they were in the car and out of my sight. i even turned my head all the way back while i was in the car with Alice. At that time, it really hit me.. that i was alone.
Because i think for the past year, everyone was anticipating for my departure here. Like everytime we would say.. " eh nanti kau dah kat sana tak boleh buat ni lagi.. bla bla bla". The last raya was also very emotional. Maybe, its the first time ever the parents are putting their child away to somewhere. No, seriously, this is even worse than being married off.

I am so lucky and bersyukur that i had the opportunity to study elsewhere from home. Because i remembered someone saying that, " the best form of education is travel.."
im so glad im exposed to the outside world , mixing around with everyone else from all over the world. The perks of being an international student. Thats where you get to meet different people and share whatever backgrounds you have. Not only that, i think i grew as a person.. how much more independant i am as compared to before. And yes, more confident to speak my mind.

I was'nt too sure what happened to me for the past few years, but everyone realised that i kinda mellowed down on my talking. Seriously, for those who knew me before poly... i talked alot. But now.. i prefer not to talk so much, because i assumed for those who speak alot , knew little. i dont want to be a "tin kosong". Maybe ...architecture made me quiet. Just doing drawings and models and presentation boards.

ok so, the bottom line is, i kinda appreaciate my family more, now that i dont have them with me. Now, my family is my housemates and my friends. Not helping that one housemate's mood is always on and off. haha, thats another story.

And im quite worried about my aunt now who is in ICU. ain doakan Wak Sumee recover from your illness fast...