tsk tsk

saw my mum cried today.
and for the first time... she slapped one of us.

all because of that no good boy .. wth...doesnt appreaciate watever she did to him.. all these while, he was the gold one, semua org sayang...
semua org menatang bagai minyak yg penuh...
geram tol aku....

he did sumthing at skool, i would say its petty.. but, its the moral tt counts...
when he came back..... cam earthquake umah aku jadi...she yelled, whacked him, nagged......n finally dropped down to tears..... saying all kinds of emotional things.......siak ahh.... the atmosphere was soo tense .. that even me n my sis cried. si dektu.... buat muka bersalah.....
tell me, how often does ur mum cry in front of u?? the last time i saw her cry was wen she almost got an illness.......

cant take these line that she said...

"kau nk aku mati??
kau ingat aku ni sihat sgt??
kasi pelajaran....
kasi makn sedap2....
kasi belajar ugama...
semua kau nk aku kasi....
ingat kau lah harapan aku...."

arghhhh!!! emotional nyer.... tk leh angkat!! den she sat there in the kitchen.....crying...
den we lectured him....n told him to apologize to her
plz ahh... PSLE coming.. dun do stupid things.... i dun see any improvement in his results.. n he gives this crap..... abeh da gitu .. buat perangai.. merajok ahh kau sana , tk de org nk layan,, kau da buat mak nangis.!

having boys in the house doesnt help..ni ahh budak lelaki. tau enjoy jer.... they should have at least responsilibity towards the family.. ... sumtimes, i feel like im the eldest of the four. da lah abg tk leh harap , adek lelaki cam gini... eeeeeeee wats gonna happen....
my mum told me this.. tt once, my dad was ashamed to tell his frens about his children.. anak org lain.. masuk Uni... anak sendiri.....hmm ...

how i wish i can grow up faster, take on some responsibility......
they arent getting any younger... they should rest.
im gonna make sure that he doesnt grow up to be a useless brat.

i dun get it lah with guys.. tau nk enjoy jer bila muda.. den nanti menyesal....
hate it wen i used to chat with abg2 who tell me to study hard... make ur parents happy.. bla bla blah.....urghh...i noe its experience for them...and they are just trying to remind.. but..
nasi da jadi bubur for them.. y didnt they listen to other ppl wen they used to be young and wen opportunities for them to change werent too late.......
i guess tts how God make ppls destiny.... everyone has their own special path to go through...

hmm.. im not perfect either. need others to remind me constantly.