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elooooo!! peeps... !! im back!!
submission day was just now.. so... like normal... need to finish up drawings, models, journal,...
busy as a bumble bee...heeee
den... as usual... the day of submission = day out with KANAK2 BUDU


my dad's been painting the walls again.... hes stressed , i knew it.
its either hes fixing sumthing that need not be fixed or hes cleaning the house in front of us.
just when i thought that things were going to be better for him, things start to cock up again. hes in a new werking environment now,... lesser workload, same old pay . noticed that he doesnt have to bring paperwork back home as he used to anymore....the only paperwork i see him doing, is calculating the household budjet.. sheesh.....
nowadays... hes talking about moving to JB .. i hate it.... everytime sumthing cocks up with his werk, he says tt to us.. ( aku tk nk jadi minah malaysia seh) n of course the same old naggings about money..

i dunnoe y .... some ppl just cant see others have a better life than them...JEALOUSY.......heard tt things arnt as smooth .... his colleagues are just jealous that my dads pay is higher than those who hold his rank... wat the hell... its because of experience duh!! hes old, n needs to retire soon... y cant ppl just let it be!!!! they didnt noe...., wat hell he went thru before this, ..
-refused a lump sum of good-hand-shake money just to continue werking for the government because he thnks that it is stable ( n because he needs to feed us) .....
-transfered to boys home (with those hooligans)... but need to walk around alot.. n tt gave him leg problems..
-transfered to Boys hostel and was doing a 3 in 1 person job
-continued werking under a f***ing 29 yr old boss who says that he werks like shit rite in the face....
- almost quit his job due to over trusting an old MAMAK friend in safekeeping another less stressful job which is definitely not suitable for my dad .....
-demoted and doing less stuff n gossips that are to be continued..


i realised that hes changed... hes looking older in a short time.... i mean. its in the face u noe...just not like he used to be....
MONEY MONEY... yer lah, kalau dia tk keje... nk makn ape seh....

im sooooo mad at my bro, he didnt even show any kind of responsiblity towards the family. he is the first child for gods sake ....all he does is..... treat home as a hotel for the wkend wen he comes home from camp... goes clubbing ( which to my dad is "latenight movies"), plays with the internet all day..
den spent his ever so little money on the most trendy apparels around....
hes never there in the family.... always minding his own business... urghh.. n ... he still takes money from my dad!!! never seen him give money to my dad.... i mean, its not the amount but its the thought that counts u noe....

sumtimes wen i hear that other ppl's older sibling gives money to their parents.. im soo ashamed of mine... i noe, ns money isnt much.. but.... at least 50 bucks will do u noe.. rather than nothing....and especially wen my dad is like that.......
well, no hope for him....

my mum, she gets the stress too, cos, my dad, cant stop complaining n whining to her.. but wen we give him suggestions wat to do... he will say... " korang senang ckp... aku yg keje"...
i thnk being a housewife is sooo stressful, everything comes back to u,... the kids problem, ur husband's....
tts y i always listen to her complains, gossip ....... cause at least she feels better.. im her place to talk to .....but, im not always around....(architecture nyer pasal ahh ni)
but i think we are close as a family, at least not to the extend that everyone doesnt care about each other...hmmmm.....

i noe, im guilty of using up his money.. but hey.... im the child worth investing ok. hahhahah...
well, just hope things get better,..... (nk kene doa lebih.. heee)